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Sometimes you told people about one story and it will end up to be different from what you have told them. It's common right?
Sometimes you don't even have to open your mouth to start your story, they already know a lot about you. They have heard all of it from other people. Some of them weren't true at all.
As a matter of fact, usually you'll believe in other people's story rather than trying to find it out by yourselves. In a blink of an eye, the spoken words will change your perspective, your impression towards others. Little did you know that things weren't like that, weren't supposed to be like that. Or perhaps you know, but you couldn't care less.
It's always the same. In times like this, you just have to be patient.
Imam Ibn Al-Qayyim said,
“There are three types of patience: Firstly, practicing patience to fulfill the obligations and to do righteous. Secondly, abstaining from evil and prohibited acts.And thirdly, practicing patience during times of hardship without complaints.”
I have to be patient for certain things in life. I've learned to endure it while I can.
I've been wondering how did it went wrong, why and where did that leave me?
Even this one is relentless. It keeps me up at night thinking about it again and again.
P/s: Did you know that the word ‘al-sheda’ (hardship) is mentioned 102 times and the word ‘al-sabr’(patience) is mentioned 102 times in Holy Quran ?
Well I got to meet different set of friends this weekend. I had so much fun with all of them.
I went to two different sets of wedding. Both were my friends' wedding. One was the one I knew from my university. The other one was from my school. They were all looked pretty in a sleek wedding clothes.
One thing for sure, finally I got the chance to meet my friends. I've been so busy with works and stuffs.
I already miss them. Being with them, I almost forgot all the problems that came swarming into my life. They made me laugh, we had a quick catching up session.
But even for a short while, I had fun. It's like a perfect getaway for awhile.
I'm gonna miss them. ;)
Too many things happened today.
I don't mind if it's only for me, but it involved with other people as well.
I'm guilt-ridden. I admit it was my bad.
I should have asked in the first place.
But what else can I do?
The damage is done.
But trust me, it's not going to be the same anymore.
I have to accept that.
What is this feeling?
I miss my friends, even friend of friend, I just miss everyone.
I miss the sleepless nights when I had to battle with my eyes.
I miss the exhaustion of doing piles of works, assignments, programmings and whatnot.
I miss days when I had nothing to do, nothing to worry, nothing to even think about something.
I miss being with someone who cares.
I miss talking to someone who actually listens.
I miss laughing so hard that my stomach hurts.
I found myself buried with all of these feelings.
Dear ugly feelings, would you mind to skip me in your routine visit? Would you, could you?
"Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.
And you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.
And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about."
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Yesterday was my birthday. I'm grateful that I'm still here, breathing happily in this world.
Yes, I'm now officially 23. It's just a mere age.
But I do know, I'm getting older and wiser as opposed to years before.
I've seen and experienced a lot of things throughout these 23 lovely years.
I've tasted the sweetness of a victory's breath of my own effort to survive, to achieve my own dreams. Yet, I still have a lot of things to do to attain the life I dream to have. ;)
I'm blessed with everything that Allah had given me, and I'm still praying, offering my hand, my heart to accept His ceaseless blessing, I'm still praying to ask for His help and guidance to lead me into a meaningful life.
Infinite thanks to my parents as well, in times they had to bear with my defiant, obstinate acts. They had to bear the sheer force of me, whining about my life. But never did once they give up on me, never did once they leave me hanging without any guidance. Without them, I'm a nobody. They taught me well. I love them to death and I can't imagine myself being in the right state of mind without them. Therefore, I'm grateful to still have them in my life. ;)
To all my friends, I'm thankful to get the chance of being friends with all of you. And this is for years to come.
As Our Lives Change, Come Whatever, We Will Still Be Friends Forever. ~Graduation (Vitamin C)
P/s: Many thanks for the thoughtful wishes. ;) I got 2 lovely cakes. Thanks to my parents.
Arctic Monkeys - Reckless Serenade by kaneomak
Here's the latest single by Arctic Monkeys.
Unlike Brick by Brick and Don't Sit Down 'Cause I've Moved Your Chair, this is awesome.
I like the song, I like this kind of Alex. Now I can't wait for the whole album. :)
Today I'm screwed up.
I did the wrong things.
Said the wrong things.
Passed the wrong things.
Heard the wrong things.
Typed the wrong message.
Sent the wrong things.
When did it all become so hard?
It's effing easy actually, but why was it so hard today?
Some things are meant to be a secret. I should not have said anything.
And I should not let my mind went wild wandering around everywhere. Haishhh. :(
I've gotta learn from this one. :)
"It takes time to learn to live in the here and now. You have to hang on past the bad times, ... If you do hang on and do not run from your life you discover that you have more control of your thoughts and feelings, and your life, than you believed possible. You learn to quiet your frantic mind, to downgrade your expectations of things and people, find pleasure in solitude, and finally discover who you really are."
— Joan Medlicott (Come Walk with Me)
"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great"
— Mark Twain
"Go easy on yourself, for all affairs are determined by Allah’s decree. If something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come your way… But if it is yours by destiny, from you it cannot flee."
―Umar ibn al-Khattāb
I wonder what should I do when my mood is not heightened?
It feels weird.
It feels sad.
I feel sluggish. What a bummer.
Again, jealousy is so powerful, spreading their wings without any concern of the opponent's weakness.
I should just be content with everything, but when it feels like you've made the wrong choice, it's hard to embrace it.
Well the weather is not always fine, there's always raining, tornadoes and whatnot, I guess everything shall be fine. Soon. :)
I'm trying to wear the positive attitude. It looks good on others, why not me, right?
Instead of complaining that the rosebush is full of thorns, be happy that the thorn bush has roses. ~Proverb
Live every day as if it were your last and then some day you'll be right. ~H.H. "Breaker" Morant
As you grow older, you'll find the only things you regret are the things you didn't do. ~Zachary Scott
Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely. ~Auguste Rodin
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars..
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now.........