A new chapter of life is beginning soonish.
I'm not sure about others but I have a fest inside my head. A planning fest, that is. I tend to plan lots of things inside my tiny head.
Words i wanna say.
Things i wanna do.
Places i wanna go.
Inappropriate honest opinions I wanna shoot.
Dreams I have.
It's all in my head. It's a galore. Sadly, most of the times it didn't happen the way i wanted it to be or perhaps the way it should have been. But for the things I did, things I have gone through, I keep reminding myself there's no regret.
"Nothing can happen to us except what Allah has ordained for us. He is our Master. It is in Allah that the muminun should put their trust" (Al-Tawba: 51)
It shouldn't be any regret. The problem lies for the things I never do, things I wanna do.
What's the saying about following your guts etc? Well sometimes I feel like I have no guts to do some things. That explains why some things left in the list, never been ticked off.
"If I could give you just one gift, do you know what it would be? Confidence." (One Day, 2011)
Yeah, I need confidence. Still confidence alone isn't gonna cut it. I need something more.
I actually tittered at the thought of me wanting something more. I haven't rip the shadow of my so-called confidence, yet I want something more. Hish.
Many a time I think and just think, never really do what I wanna do, never really say what I wanna say and the list goes on. And for the things I should do or must do, I tend to stall it. It's fatal. I do believe the more you stall, the lazier you are. At the end of the day, you'll go crazy.
Funny how a brain works, often driven by aims or targets. But who am I kidding? We are His servants with a sole purpose which is to serve Him and none other. In spite of all that, for the worldly affairs if we have a longer time span of accomplishing a goal, we would nonetheless stall if we could. The likelihood of giving other trivial business is higher.
This is where I am wrong. In need of a change.
It's a new year soon. According to Muslim calendar, it's 1433. Alhamdulillah for Allah still giving me a chance to breathe in for another second, minute, week, year (God knows when).
Life goes by in a blink of an eye. I read this one book and it is true that time is going faster these days.
The Prophet(SAW) told us that one of the signs of the Last Day would be that
“Time would move faster - so that a whole year would pass like a month, a month would pass like a week, a week like a day, a day like an hour, and an hour like the amount of time it takes to kindle a fire.” (Ahmad)
This is actually a reminder for us, forgetful servants to do rightful things for gaining access to the beautiful jannah.
Note to self: Do and keep doing. Not think and do nothing.
InsyaAllah.
Salam Maal Hijrah. Xo
Gael: Gael.
Ted: I’m sorry, Gayle?
Gael: Gael!
Barney: …Kyle?
Gael: Guy-el.
Marshall: …Girl?
How I Met Your Mother 3.01 - “Wait For It”
I've noticed I keep coming back writing in here when I clearly stated that I won't be coming back. So much for hiatus. :\
Whatever. All I know is that I have this one week for a short break. I can do whatever I want. Me writing in here, it's like a medium to drain some parts in my brain. Having people to read it on the other hand is a different story.
One week isn't that 'fantasy' long if you have to minus it with reality. Yeah, as usual assignments tag along.
Anyway, earlier today when I was driving back home my door wasn't properly closed as in not tight closed. Usually I'd have known for certain seeing the light in my car indicating it's not properly closed. But no, this time no light whatsoever.
Once upon a moment, there was this one guy honked me few times to warn me. At first, I thought WTH man, did I cut your line? Did I do something to offend you?
But when I saw him, he was warning me complete with hand gestures and everything. I'm thankful for that small act of kindness.
What fazed me was that no one other than him said anything about the door. I mean, I was driving for more than 10 mins before he came and honked at me. What happened to few others?
Positive thinking! Maybe they didn't see it at all. It was my fault to even begin with. I should have checked my door. Le sigh.
Anyhow I'm just being thankful and all that. May Allah bless you wherever you are.
I'd never forget a small act of kindness.
"Do not forget small kindnesses and do not remember small faults. " -Chinese Proverb
Subhanallah. Inspiring, isn't it? I couldn't agree more.
It's weird that I felt a sudden gush of weird emotions watching the videos. So weird that having two in one sentence isn't enough. :\
It's a mix feelings of sadness, guilty, the feeling of not enough and anything equals to those. Oh wait, it's heightened.
It's not a shame that I actually broke out into tears watching both of the videos. Yes, I'm sentimental like that. I know it says in the title "Don't shed a tear watching this video".
Oh my, I didn't invite the tears. It came streaming down my cheeks just like that. Just because.
Truthfully, how often do you hear such powerful words that can easily touch your heart? Perhaps the threshold of my sadness began to recede on its own.
If your soul is still unflinching, I pray that one day you'll get there.
I don't know about you. I believe it depends on which angle you view it, no?
Frankly the message in the video uplifted me.
I wrote this once and I'm going to repeat it again as a reminder. We're so determined to satisfy ourselves hankering for the worldly affairs that we forget the existence of the other world.
Even if you're not ready, it doesn't hurt to just try and keep learning. Let's because I'm willing to learn. Xo
“He wanted to cry quietly but not for himself: for the words, so beautiful and sad, like music.”
― James Joyce, A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
“Anyone who has learned the Quran and holds it lovingly in his heart will 'value his nights when people are asleep, his days when people are given to excess, his grief when people are joyful, his weeping when people
laugh, his silence when people chatter and his humility when people are arrogant'. In other words every moment of life will be precious to him, and he should therefore be 'gentle', never harsh nor quarrelsome, 'nor one who makes a clamour in the market nor one who is quick to anger'.”
― Ibn Mas'ud
“Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before--more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle.”
― Charles Dickens
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