Undisclosed

"Have at least some good deeds that you do, kept secret between you and your Maker"

I got this from a good friend of mine. The quote is so lovely and so meaningful.
We live in a different time from our ancestors. We live in a world where everything is just a status away, a tweet away, an instagram away etc. Sometimes people these days do thing with an incentive to tell the world about it. We are all guilty of it at some point.
We tell the world our routine; what we eat, what we buy, why we do it etc.

People could be benefited from those but sometimes it could also draw jealousy. And from there onward, things could be a bit of a mess. I guess we should always filter things that we are about to share if we can or if we want to.

Going back to the quote. Some people always tell the world about the good things that they've done, about their religious routine etc. Maybe it's good to inspire people but this is an absolute reminder to all of us. We should always have good things that we do being kept as a secret between us and Allah alone. If you could do that, that's pure sincerity because you don't need to tell others to validate the good things that you had done and you don't need others to convince you of the good things that you had done. Trust me, we are just human after all. We always do this. If we don't tell the world, sometimes we tell it to our family or our best friend or a stranger or anybody else.
Start count your good deeds and see if anybody else know about it. Start keeping it as a secret between you and Allah alone.

The only person you should be telling is yourself so that you can always outrun yourself to be better each and every day.

"Work hard in silence, let your success be all your noise"

Preoccupied

Euro is coming and I have the biggest concern in my life.

I'm afraid I don't have enough time to catch up with Euro. I'm working right now and it's certainly different when I was a student.

Few years back, I wouldn't mind to sleep for 2-3 hours before heading to my classes in the early morning. Yeah you know, we don't have to be in campus like 8-9 hours straight. There are few gaps in between, you can take a catnap.

But as of now, I need at least 5-6 hours sound sleep for me to muster enough energy to work tomorrow. And how in the world will I be able to catch Euro without the need to worry about my performance during work?

Hiyya. National problem..!!!

I guess I just have to sacrifice a lil' bit. It's either to sacrifice my energy or sacrifice my need.

Sacrifice my energy in the sense that I'll watch the match for sure but I have to keep up my energy level for work as well. Drink some energy drink etc cause I can't drink Nescafe. My poor body rejected caffeine.

Sacrifice my need in the sense that I'll just pretend Euro is not happening right now which is so difficult for me! I don't have to watch the match if it's on weekdays. All I need to do is just to keep myself updated with the scores. Still, it's a tough job for me.

I wonder if we are growing old and older, do we sacrifice our interest to fit with our age?

When we were kids, we were playing with dolls, tamiya, legos etc and somehow when we reached puberty, we stopped playing.

I mean like when I reach 35-40 y/o, do I still watch football or the interest will fade as the time goes by?

I wonder and keep wondering.

But one thing for sure, people keep changing. Our brain is developing. 

Few years back I would have never imagined to be doing what I do now. I would have never like things that I like now.

Same goes with technologies. It keeps surprising us. Almost everything is going digital nowadays. 

Smart phone with a data connection is now a necessity. People created the necessity.

In the future, there's always something to surprise you or even to drive you. You just have no idea how to handle it yet. Let's wait and observe the changes we create. ;)

xoxo
  

Steal Dorothy's red shoes

Yes, I would like to steal it if it could give me the power to just go anywhere.

And time machine is a good alternative too.

Anyhow, I've been working for almost a month now. I like my work even though sometimes I'm tired but at this moment, I like it.

I never thought I need to do some coding but yeah, my SV asked me to write some codes. It's a good thing because I don't have to totally abandon programming thingy.

One thing for sure, working life and student's life is certainly different.

I kinda miss my student's life. But who am I kidding, we're aging forward not backward.

I wish I could be like Button if you know what I mean.

Lots of things have changed these days.

People say "With great power comes great responsibility"

and I believe 'with great age comes great responsibility' too.

At this age, you see life in a different perspective.

Responsibilities tag along for sure!

And somehow at some point, you laugh at the thought of being the younger YOU.

How you were so silly back then. How you were so naive back then. How you were so defiant back then.

But eventually you still have a long way to go.

Momentous Occasion

Today is a momentous occasion for me.


Happy Mother's Day to all the wonderful Moms in the world especially my Mom.


She's indeed my superhero cause she's a superwoman in our house. ♥ 

Without her, I'd be nothing. 

May Allah bless her in this life and hereafter. 
Anyhow my birthday happened to fall on Mother's Day. *Clap clap clap* 

Unfortunately, I'm not in the pink of health.

I've got a bad fever, flu and severe sore throat. It's been 4 days.

I'm on the mend now.

But my sore throat keeps getting worse like I have a frog stuck in my throat.

Severe sore throat comes with a bad coughing and flu. ;'(

I've finished taking my meds but to no avail.

I hope I'll get better soon.

Anyway, regardless of me being off color, I'm still beyond happy to celebrate my birthday and Mother's day.

Alhamdulillah, my life has been great so far. I thank Allah for His innumerable blessings.

I've graduated and now I'm working as an engineer.

I hope my choice to decline an offer to further my studies is a good one. They offered me quite a huge amount of scholarship to support my studies but I had to turn it down due to some reasons.

I believe everything happens for a reason.

I'm happy for now. I guess it's telling me something. ;)

A happy toast to myself..!!

Here's to the successful years ahead

Of being a little too nice

Occasionally, have you ever felt like you're being a little too nice or too kind?

I do.

And sometimes it felt like your kindness has been abused.

You know, like we can simply let things to slide because it's a small matter.

But somehow, the other party usually are seeing things with half-closed eyes. They tend to let things to slide as well.

Some of them are being inconsiderate that they don't value much of your effort to care for them.

But I guess it goes with experiences.

You have to experience the situation for you to be reminded.

Otherwise, your heart is still blind. And you'll never be aware of the risk of hurting others.

Such a sad world.

Even so, there's no concrete reason for us, for me to stop being nice.

Be nice even if you might exhaust yourself. 
 

My precious

I would trade anything in the world if by doing such I would be able to repay my parents' kindness.

But I just could not.

I'm so grateful to my parents that I feel like I'll have a forever unsettled debt with them.

I will NEVER be able to repay their kindness.

Sometimes I may have taken them for granted, may have overlooked their importance but believe me, they play a major role in my life.

I always need them and they're always there for me. I guess it's the same for everyone.

If I ask them for some time, they always find some time to allocate for me.

If I ask for some money, they always give me more than what I asked.

If I ask them for support, they always offer me full-fledged support.

If I ask them for some advices, they always shower me with meaningful advices.

All in all, they have given their all for nothing in return but for mere happiness.

I'm deeply touched and always grateful for having them. Always. 

I hope I'm not a burden to them cause I sure feel like one, sometimes or most of the times perhaps.

I love them so much.

Just feel like expressing my gratitude in here.

Just because.

"Kindness is a language which the dumb can speak, the deaf can understand."
-- C.N. Bovee 

"Have you had a kindness shown? Pass it on;
'Twas not given for thee alone, Pass it on;
Let it travel down the years,
Let it wipe another's tears.
Pass it on."
-- Rev. Henry Burton

Superstition

Do you believe in superstition?

I know every race has their own superstitious beliefs; usually passed by our ancestors.

I don't believe this kind of thing but I do believe it somehow affects us.

Yeah you know like if you broke a mirror or something, you're convinced that something bad will happen and as the day goes by, every single thing seems to be out of place. It's a mere coincidence.

But people believe it's really bad luck.

Like a placebo effect. 

It's only a mind trick.

And today, my mind plays a little trick and nah, I'm not gonna fall for it.

Out of the Cocoon

I have this bad habit; I tend to over-analyzed things/decisions I've made knowing that I could do better or I could have made another decision.

Do you have this? Hahaa

I'm not quite sure but as of now, I'm having second thoughts and it's irritating because you know you could do nothing to turn back time.

It's a bad habit though.

It's like why would you muse over something in the past?

Haishh..

I really hope I've made a good decision because I'm certain that it was not merely forced by desperation.

Cause you know sometimes when you're in a particular situation where you have limited choices or rather non-existence time/preference to weigh the option, you just sorta choose whatever comes in your mind or sometimes it was solely based on instinct whatsoever.

Oh wait, I don't want to be convinced otherwise. Please kill the thoughts.

Well now that I'm out of the cocoon I really hope, things will gradually get better. Soon. InsyaAllah.

I don't know what's ahead of me but I hope I'm able to embrace it with a smile; new opportunities, new challenges, new environment, new changes and everything.

Let's just face the real world. Holla!!

God, I feel old and matured somehow.

Hahaha. JK.

Act in Manners

What is it about people who don’t care?

People who don’t give a hoot to say thank you, to smile or to just care for little things in life.

Call me lame for having such an ancient mind; I do believe people should do it more often in daily life.

What is it about ego that can’t be hindered?

What is it about winning side that can’t be bothered by losing just a little bit?

Just a little bit wouldn’t hurt, mind you. I always find it’s nice for people to
say thank you. A simple thank you note would suffice.
At least, to some people it is.

People actually have the effort to help you, to send you great wishes, to lend you things, to care for you and etc.

What’s so hard to utter the words of gratitude? It could brighten someone’s day. You’ll never know.

I don't know but I'm just really into people who practice common courtesies, proper etiquette etc. 

Good to know my Mark feel the same way. Hahaa.

P/s: Being dorky on the other hand is different with ill-mannered people.

“Life is short, but there is always time enough for courtesy.”
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

"I seek constantly to improve my manners and graces, for they are the sugar to which all are attracted."
~Og Mandino

"I think sometimes people project things on you, but I'm trying to handle everything that's happened to me with a certain amount of grace, dignity and good manners. You just can't necessarily win all the time."
~Katie Couric

My Mark

It's not relatively new but well I've figured I've gone completely crazy.

It sounds eerily ridiculous..But hmmm how do I put it in words?

It's just that my heart flutters at every single thing he does. I wonder why? Even at the slightest random thing.

I'm naming him Mark albeit he does not like the name, I'm sticking with Mark anyway.

I once gave MAC as a name to someone and now it's Mark for him. For him and only him. Hahahah xD (I'm shriveling as I write this!!)

Excerpt from this song is solely for him:

'cause every little thing you do turns me on

and everytime you speak you touch my soul...

Challenge my luck

It's been a while. Well I've come to wipe off the dust that I left in this space.

It's not that I don't wanna write anymore but I've come to write in another place. It's just that I've always prefer some space with few known people, sort of like a secret lair. One thing about technologies is that at certain point, you'll feel like you've shared so much that it almost felt like your thoughts are naked.

As of now, I've been exercising my brain once again, doing what I've always wanted to do. Truth is, I've so much to do in my life. I have a new obsession too, something I wouldn't have thought of liking before, but yeah I'm breaking the rules anyway. I have so much interest with my new obsession that I wouldn't mind being a dork just to scrap a tiny info about them. I've never been like this. But hell yeah, once I've made up my mind, I swear I'm not turning back.

On another note, I'm trying to absorb the positivity as much as I can just cause I need it.

I'm quoting Robin (HIMYM), "The future is scary But you can't just run back to the past because it's familiar. Yes, it's tempting...But it's...."

In the episode, it supposed to be "it's a mistake" but I'm going for this

-but it's just a set of experiences that will teach you a better lesson.

I'm ending my post with one of my fav songs (if you know it by heart just by looking at the lyrics, you are an ACE! xD)

"I wish I could be happy, I wish I wish I wish

That something would happen. Where do we go from here

The planet is all gummed up in the sea of fear

And where are you............"

Till then, cheers peers! <3

Called and Uncalled For

Last night I had a minor accident. Alhamdulillah all of us are doing fine. But my car had a little injury. So little that it cried my heart out. ;'(

I admit, I might have pressed the gas pedal too soon and then bump.

One thing for sure: Your subconscious mind is very powerful.

My conscious mind is responsible for the logic knowing I couldn't pass it but then my subconscious mind injected the ego 'Nah, surely you can pass it' that turned out to be false.

Subconscious mind to the conscious mind : "The installed program of ego is going to be launched and the result will be a behavior that you may regret later."

Kaboom. Regret....and still regret...!!!

To counter for the mistake, my subconscious mind launched the reflex actions. hmm

Still, things happened for a reason.

'Redha' is one word befitting my situation right now.

Lesson learnt. It's time to smile again. ;)

(No one is considered to have believed until he believes in qadar and that good and evil are from Allah and until he believes that whatever has befallen him would have never missed him and whatever was decreed not to befall him will never befall him.) [Tirmidhi]

As Loud As Feeling

I'm writing this as a response to this. Guess this is written for all of you, you know who you are.

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart”
― Helen Keller

It'd be a blatant lie if I say I felt nothing reading the entire post because man, I do. And I do it wholeheartedly hence writing this entry.

It's no surprise that we have known each other for almost 4 years and counting. We just sort of clicked and like a force between two magnetic poles, it can never be broken. At least not without a presence of another force.

What force? It could be anything but I'll leave it as it is. I'm afraid my thoughts will turn into reality.

Anyhow, in less than 2 months or 3 months top, each of us will depart and follow a different path. Some of us are getting married, some of us might be planning to continue studying and whatnot.

Truly time isn't so friendly to us. At least not in our final semester because I swear everyday I was left being unsatisfied with the time we spent.

Never enough.

There's always new gossip to share.

New issue to prank.

New thought to ponder.

New opinion.

New joke.

With you guys, there is always something new.

I love how a mundane day can turn into a joyous day in a split second.

How ridiculously plain issue can turn into a redonkulous joke of the world.

How a short laughter can turn into a chain of laughter among us.

pic courtesy of steve

How the 'no offense' jokes become 'offense intended' jokes for a mere laughter.

Trust me dearest friends, if I were to summarize the whole experiences it still wouldn't be enough.

For that, I thank you all my beloved. Merci beaucoup.

Thanks for letting me see life through a whole different perspective. I wouldn't have changed for the better if it's not for your kind endeavor.

For the times we bicker and such, that's just a mistake every once in a while. And here's sorry for the mistakes done. Cheers. :)

Let's enjoy the time that we have and relish it while it lasts.

The span of our friendship is never up to any limit.

Though we go our separate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
The memories we made

Please remember, Please remember

Of thinking beyond

A new chapter of life is beginning soonish.

I'm not sure about others but I have a fest inside my head. A planning fest, that is. I tend to plan lots of things inside my tiny head.

Words i wanna say.

Things i wanna do.

Places i wanna go.

Inappropriate honest opinions I wanna shoot.

Dreams I have.

It's all in my head. It's a galore. Sadly, most of the times it didn't happen the way i wanted it to be or perhaps the way it should have been. But for the things I did, things I have gone through, I keep reminding myself there's no regret.

"Nothing can happen to us except what Allah has ordained for us. He is our Master. It is in Allah that the muminun should put their trust" (Al-Tawba: 51)

It shouldn't be any regret. The problem lies for the things I never do, things I wanna do.

What's the saying about following your guts etc? Well sometimes I feel like I have no guts to do some things. That explains why some things left in the list, never been ticked off.

"If I could give you just one gift, do you know what it would be? Confidence." (One Day, 2011)

Yeah, I need confidence. Still confidence alone isn't gonna cut it. I need something more.

I actually tittered at the thought of me wanting something more. I haven't rip the shadow of my so-called confidence, yet I want something more. Hish.

Many a time I think and just think, never really do what I wanna do, never really say what I wanna say and the list goes on. And for the things I should do or must do, I tend to stall it. It's fatal. I do believe the more you stall, the lazier you are. At the end of the day, you'll go crazy.

Funny how a brain works, often driven by aims or targets. But who am I kidding? We are His servants with a sole purpose which is to serve Him and none other. In spite of all that, for the worldly affairs if we have a longer time span of accomplishing a goal, we would nonetheless stall if we could. The likelihood of giving other trivial business is higher.

This is where I am wrong. In need of a change.

It's a new year soon. According to Muslim calendar, it's 1433. Alhamdulillah for Allah still giving me a chance to breathe in for another second, minute, week, year (God knows when).

Life goes by in a blink of an eye. I read this one book and it is true that time is going faster these days.

The Prophet(SAW) told us that one of the signs of the Last Day would be that

“Time would move faster - so that a whole year would pass like a month, a month would pass like a week, a week like a day, a day like an hour, and an hour like the amount of time it takes to kindle a fire.” (Ahmad)

This is actually a reminder for us, forgetful servants to do rightful things for gaining access to the beautiful jannah.

Note to self: Do and keep doing. Not think and do nothing.
InsyaAllah.

Salam Maal Hijrah. Xo

Modificación

Donning a new template. ;)

A Token Gesture

I've noticed I keep coming back writing in here when I clearly stated that I won't be coming back. So much for hiatus. :\

Whatever. All I know is that I have this one week for a short break. I can do whatever I want. Me writing in here, it's like a medium to drain some parts in my brain. Having people to read it on the other hand is a different story.

One week isn't that 'fantasy' long if you have to minus it with reality. Yeah, as usual assignments tag along.

Anyway, earlier today when I was driving back home my door wasn't properly closed as in not tight closed. Usually I'd have known for certain seeing the light in my car indicating it's not properly closed. But no, this time no light whatsoever.

Once upon a moment, there was this one guy honked me few times to warn me. At first, I thought WTH man, did I cut your line? Did I do something to offend you?

But when I saw him, he was warning me complete with hand gestures and everything. I'm thankful for that small act of kindness.

What fazed me was that no one other than him said anything about the door. I mean, I was driving for more than 10 mins before he came and honked at me. What happened to few others?

Positive thinking! Maybe they didn't see it at all. It was my fault to even begin with. I should have checked my door. Le sigh.

Anyhow I'm just being thankful and all that. May Allah bless you wherever you are.

I'd never forget a small act of kindness.

"Do not forget small kindnesses and do not remember small faults. " -Chinese Proverb

Cleansing Soul

Subhanallah. Inspiring, isn't it? I couldn't agree more.

It's weird that I felt a sudden gush of weird emotions watching the videos. So weird that having two in one sentence isn't enough. :\

It's a mix feelings of sadness, guilty, the feeling of not enough and anything equals to those. Oh wait, it's heightened.

It's not a shame that I actually broke out into tears watching both of the videos. Yes, I'm sentimental like that. I know it says in the title "Don't shed a tear watching this video".

Oh my, I didn't invite the tears. It came streaming down my cheeks just like that. Just because.

Truthfully, how often do you hear such powerful words that can easily touch your heart? Perhaps the threshold of my sadness began to recede on its own.

If your soul is still unflinching, I pray that one day you'll get there.

I don't know about you. I believe it depends on which angle you view it, no?

Frankly the message in the video uplifted me.

I wrote this once and I'm going to repeat it again as a reminder. We're so determined to satisfy ourselves hankering for the worldly affairs that we forget the existence of the other world.

Even if you're not ready, it doesn't hurt to just try and keep learning. Let's because I'm willing to learn. Xo

“He wanted to cry quietly but not for himself: for the words, so beautiful and sad, like music.”
― James Joyce, A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man

“Anyone who has learned the Quran and holds it lovingly in his heart will 'value his nights when people are asleep, his days when people are given to excess, his grief when people are joyful, his weeping when people
laugh, his silence when people chatter and his humility when people are arrogant'. In other words every moment of life will be precious to him, and he should therefore be 'gentle', never harsh nor quarrelsome, 'nor one who makes a clamour in the market nor one who is quick to anger'.”
― Ibn Mas'ud

“Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before--more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle.”
― Charles Dickens

Je suis amoureuse

It's so fun doing this one.

Anyway that's one hell of a snapshot of what combines myself. Hahaha. Kidding.

I took the quiz from here. It's cool, isn't it?!(^_^)

Friendship Bracelet

Your buddies will be overjoyed to learn that you've drawn the Friendship Bracelet. It stands for sociability and your talent for making each friend, online and off, feel special. So very special.

Statue of Liberty

Quick: look out your window. Any purple mountains' majesty? Amber waves of grain? We wouldn't be surprised, because you're in the U-S-A!

Toy Robot

Hello intrepid Firefox 3 user! You’ve been with us for a long time, and we’re excited to share Firefox 4 with you. Until then, accept this trusty robot as a symbol of our appreciation.

Paintbox

A symbol of risk and reward! You're no stranger to chance, to taking a walk on the 20-sided dark side. In the game of life, you're +10 Geekiness.

Car Magazine

You are the Gear Head — mark of those who know their limited-slip differential from their throttle body. You get all revved up at the sound of a big V8, and the smell of burning rubber brings a wistful tear to your eye.

MP3 Player

You're nothing if not a completist, and you like to take it with you. Compact, concise and in control, you are master of your musical domain. Mp3, WMA, FLAC — Rock accordingly.

Sweatband

Let's go! You're not one to sit around; you like the active, positive and healthful, in body mind and spirit. And you have the sweaty wrists to prove it.

Friendship Pin

The Friendship Pin — an unbreakable bond between you and your BFF. It shows you are loyal, willing to wear your love on your sleeve (or sneaker).

Tarot card

Aha, The Magician! You possess unusual powers, and can conjure up the truth from any situation. Also, you can turn the world on with your smile.

Bandage

The adhesive bandage — mark of The Healer. You seek the perfection of the human form, or at least one less headache.

Wrench

Wield the tools to make it yours, for you are unique — and your browser can reflect that.

Business Card

The mark of the professional — you've defined yourself in the business world, and earned a fancy title for your efforts.

Pocket Knife

The Pocket Knife — small, versatile, and just a little bit dangerous. It is your symbol because you are resourceful, and sharp, and you know how to fold yourself.

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Here's another one but this one is created with my second option for the quiz. Haha xD

USB Drive

Technology lives to serve, and you like your information portable, pocketable and sharable. That's how data becomes action, and gadgets become essential.

Date Book

You know what's next; you have it all written down in your date book -the symbol of The Organizer. You're the one we turn to when we are in doubt, for you hold the answers.

Crayons

The symbol of unpretentious creativity and art. You are almost certainly imbued with a child-like curiosity and an unfettered imagination, enjoy self expression and bright colors. You are child-like, or may actually be a child.

Bookmark

As easy as clapping on a light, it's what you've been waiting for — the one-click bookmark. Don't you have enough to do without having to suffer the indignity of multiple clicks?

Knitting Needles

Ancient symbol of self-reliance, the Knitting Needle stands for your expressive individuality in the face of commercialism. With your own hands you create that which you desire, and make it purely your own.

Android Smartphone

For you, the Internet cannot be contained to a desk or a cafe. You carry it with you, not a place you go, but a tool you use. This is your Swiss Army Knife™.

Pepper Spray

You can hope to ward off evil with a rabbit's foot, or you can be more proactive. You're the pragmatist — you own your destiny, control your security and know the value of self-defense.

Transit Pass

The symbol of travel, of paths taken and untaken, of sleeping upright in a middle seat. You are The Traveler.

Gyroscope

Mystery, science, adventure — these aspects of your character are embodied in your symbol — The Gyroscope. You have the unique ability to remain calm and steady as the world spins around you. Maybe you even know how to pirouette.

Silly Band

You have a bright outlook, flexible attitude, and a kooky sense of aesthetics. You're probably the type of person that appreciates the use of the word 'kooky'.

Shell

You like to set a course for adventure, your mind on a new experience. Your treasured memories are your reward. Therefore you richly deserve The Nautilus!

Carabiner

You have drawn the Mark of the Connection; Active, strong and reliable — that's you. People count on you to keep grounded at all times, even up in the air.

Eye Drops

This vessel of curative liquid is your symbol, o power user! You are clear of vision, attack a problem at its source, and at the ready. You probably spend a lot of time staring at a screen, too.

Buddha Statue

Infinite kindness and fortune, they smile upon you. You're searches lead you to answers, and you're feeling lucky.

Self-control

"When anyone greets you in a courteous manner, let your greetings be better that his- or at least return the same, Allah keeps account of everything." (An-Nisa 86)

"Follow thou the inspiration sent unto thee, and be patient and constant, till Allah do decide: for He is the best to decide."
(Quran 10:109)

On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns. (Pray: ) “Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error; our Lord! Lay not on us a burden Like that which Thou didst lay on those before us; Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. Thou art our Protector; Help us against those who stand against faith.”(Quran 2:286)

“And whether you disclose what is in your own selves or conceal it, Allah will call you to account for it” (Qur’an 2: 284)

That is, He will call to account and He (SWT) will ask, but a person will not be punished concerning those things over which he had no power, such as the whispering of oneself and one’s speech to oneself, for this Allah (SWT) will not hold mankind accountable. And to abhor the evil whispering is a part of Faith. (Taken from Latis)

"So by mercy from Allah , [O Muhammad], you were lenient with them. And if you had been rude [in speech] and harsh in heart, they would have disbanded from about you. So pardon them and ask forgiveness for them and consult them in the matter. And when you have decided, then rely upon Allah . Indeed, Allah loves those who rely [upon Him]." (Quran 3:159)

"If Allah should aid you, no one can overcome you; but if He should forsake you, who is there that can aid you after Him? And upon Allah let the believers rely."(Quran 3:160)

"And if Allah should touch you with adversity, there is no remover of it except Him; and if He intends for you good, then there is no repeller of His bounty. He causes it to reach whom He wills of His servants. And He is the Forgiving, the Merciful" (Quran 10:107)

"And no bearer of burdens will bear the burden of another. And if a heavily laden soul calls [another] to [carry some of] its load, nothing of it will be carried, even if he should be a close relative. You can only warn those who fear their Lord unseen and have established prayer. And whoever purifies himself only purifies himself for [the benefit of] his soul. And to Allah is the [final] destination" (Quran 35:18)

One must not complain because Allah(S.W.T) predestines their hardship. No amount of hardship is beyond one's capability to endure. I know that. Truly I am.

But often in times, I failed myself. I failed when it comes to patience, perseverance and whatnot.

It's hard to be righteous when there's a pinch of bitterness tainted your soul. And when there's an option to complain, you complain nonetheless. You complain to yourself, to other self and even to Him.

What if there's no option to complain, what would you rather do?

Meekly speaking, who am I to question the integrity of what lies in my own destination? I am indeed a slave to Him. O Allah, grant me a great amount of patience with endless capacity to endure whatever befalls on me. Amin.

"Bukan senang nak jadi baik, bukan susah nak jadi jahat. Tapi yang bukan senang itu selalunya lebih mulia dari segalanya"

En la repetición

On repeat is the title.

I know I said I won't be coming back but damn, the temptation of writing when you had something in your mind is just.. umm let's settle with irresistible.

I hate being awakened in the middle of the night but yeah, I am only human after all. What say do I have in the normal cycle of my body? Oh wait, hate is a strong word. I just don't fancy it, not at all.

I wonder is it the weight of the exam? or the dying sound of my alarm clock? or even the raucous sound of everything? I'm not sure which one fits in the answer mold. I didn't ask my body. X

Anyway I have an exam tomorrow and truth is I haven't finish study. But come to think of it, when did I ever finish study something? Aww, too bad! too bad!

Worst part is I wasn't so keen on having exam but then I read one thing posted by my friend on twitter. A lil' something like this

"This is our last semester. Why do we have such feeling of laziness rather than being extra happy to go sit for the exam? It's our last semester. We won't have all of these later, better cherish it now."

It's obviously not like that but I can't seem to recall the exact words but the meaning is there.

Reading this, it's like a good knock straight up to my head!!

This kind message is supposed to last for the whole semester but yeah, you know. Human!

It lasted for only few hours and dang the laziness resides back! Big time slacker.

I put it in here so that whenever I feel like straying away from my goal, here's the big knock again!

Anyway as usual, here's an excerpt from the book 'To Kill A Mockingbird" :

“We know all men are not created equal in the sense some people would have us believe- some people are smarter than others, some people have more opportunity because they're born with it, some men make more money than others, some ladies make better cakes than others- some people are born gifted beyond the normal scope of men.
But there is one way in this country in which all men are created equal- there is one human institution that makes a pauper the equal of a Rockefeller, the stupid man the equal of an Einstein, and the ignorant man the equal of any college president. That institution, gentlemen, is a court.”
― Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird

“Naw, Jem. I think that there is just one kind of folks. Folks."

Jen turned and punched his pillow. When he settle back his face was cloudy. He was going in to one of his declines, and I grew wary. His brows came together; his mouth became a thin line. He was silent for a while.

That is what I thought, too," he said at last, "when I was your age. If there is just one kind of folks, why can't they get along with each other? If they're all alike, why do they go out of their way to despise each other? Scout, I think I am beginning to understand something. I think I'm beginning to understand why Boo Radley stayed shut up in the house all this time...it's because he wants to stay inside”
― Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird