New Beginning

 "Make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt.

So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservation, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future.

The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure.

The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.

If you want to get more out of life, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy.

But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty."

—Jon Krakauer (Into the Wild)

“The majority of people have successfully alienated themselves from change;
 they tediously arrange their lives into a familiar pattern, they give themselves to normalcy, they are proud if they are able to follow in auspicious footsteps set before them, they take pride in always coloring inside the lines and they feel secure if they belong to a batch of others who are like them.

Now, if familiar patterns bore you, if normalcy passes before you unnoticed, if you want to create your own footsteps in the earth and leave your own handprints on the skies, if you are the one who doesn't mind the lines in the coloring book as much as others do, and perchance you do not cling to a flock for you to identify with, then you must be ready for adversity.

If you are something extraordinary, you are going to always shock others and while they go about existing in their mundaneness which they call success, you're going to be flying around crazy in their skies and that scares them.

People are afraid of change, afraid of being different, afraid of doing things and thinking things that aren't a part of their checkerboard game of a life. They only know the pieces and the moves in their games, and that's it.

You're always going to find them in the place that you think you're going to find them in, and every time they think about you, you're going to give them a heart attack.”

― C.Joybell C. 


Here's to my new beginning.

My precious

I would trade anything in the world if by doing such I would be able to repay my parents' kindness.

But I just could not.

I'm so grateful to my parents that I feel like I'll have a forever unsettled debt with them.

I will NEVER be able to repay their kindness.

Sometimes I may have taken them for granted, may have overlooked their importance but believe me, they play a major role in my life.

I always need them and they're always there for me. I guess it's the same for everyone.

If I ask them for some time, they always find some time to allocate for me.

If I ask for some money, they always give me more than what I asked.

If I ask them for support, they always offer me full-fledged support.

If I ask them for some advices, they always shower me with meaningful advices.

All in all, they have given their all for nothing in return but for mere happiness.

I'm deeply touched and always grateful for having them. Always. 

I hope I'm not a burden to them cause I sure feel like one, sometimes or most of the times perhaps.

I love them so much.

Just feel like expressing my gratitude in here.

Just because.

"Kindness is a language which the dumb can speak, the deaf can understand."
-- C.N. Bovee 

"Have you had a kindness shown? Pass it on;
'Twas not given for thee alone, Pass it on;
Let it travel down the years,
Let it wipe another's tears.
Pass it on."
-- Rev. Henry Burton

Chocolate and Vanilla

"Every truth has two sides; it is as well to look at both, before we commit ourselves to either" ~Aesop

"A lie gets halfway around the world before the truth has a chance to get its pants on." ~Winston Churchill


Often in times, you don't get a chance to hear the other side of the story.

That's when the prejudices develop. 

And a heart that is governed by prejudices is not reliable.

It breeds hatred.

But then again, how do you know which side is true when you don't even possess anything to claim the truth?

Don't be so quick to judge.

It's chocolate and vanilla. You'll get one flavor at a time or both at a time if you're lucky.

And it still wouldn't be enough for you to abhor a notion.

People always have a reason why they do what they do.

You don't have to be a cat just to kill a rat.

To what extent sacrifices have to be made to obtain justice?

Really, To what extent?

Amuse me, people! 

" Whatever happened to the values of humanity
  Whatever happened to the fairness and equality
  Instead of spreading love
  We spreading animosity
  Lack of understanding
  Leading us away from unity " (Where's The Love, BEP)

Inspirations

This amazing quote is taken from Meet The Robinson movie.
I love that movie and I really love the quote at the end of the movie. :)

And this song is from Muse called Invincible.



Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don't give up the fight
You will be alright
Cause there's no one like you in the universe
Don't be afraid
What your mind conceives
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Lets use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

Do it on your own
It makes no difference to me
What you leave behind
What you choose to be
And whatever they say
Your souls unbreakable

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible
Together we're invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
Please, please Let use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say

Together we're invincible
Together we're invincible


"Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don't wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future. Think how really precious is the time you have to spend, whether it's at work or with your family. Every minute should be enjoyed and savored."
~Earl Nightingale

Why Not You?

“Why Not You?

Today, many will awaken with a fresh sense of inspiration.Why not you?

Today, many will open their eyes to the beauty that surrounds them.Why not you?

Today, many will choose to leave the ghost of yesterday behind and seize the immeasurable power of today.Why not you?

Today, many will break through the barriers of the past by looking at the blessings of the present.Why not you?

Today, for many the burden of self doubt and insecurity will be lifted by the security and confidence of empowerment.Why not you?

Today, many will rise above their believed limitations and make contact with their powerful innate strength.Why not you?
Today, many will choose to live in such a manner that they will be a positive role model for their children.Why not you?

Today, many will choose to free themselves from the personal imprisonment of their bad habits.Why not you?

 Today, many will choose to live free of conditions and rules governing their own happiness.Why not you?

Today, many will find abundance in simplicity.Why not you?

Today, many will be confronted by difficult moral choices and they will choose to do what is right instead of what is beneficial.Why not you?

Today, many will decide to no longer sit back with a victim mentality, but to take charge of their lives and make positive changes.Why not you?

Today, many will take the action necessary to make a difference.Why not you?

Today, many will make the commitment to be a better mother, father, son, daughter, student, teacher, worker, boss, brother, sister, &so much more.Why not you?

Today is a new day! Many will seize this day. Many will live it to the fullest.Why not you?

Why not you?”

― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

Act in Manners

What is it about people who don’t care?

People who don’t give a hoot to say thank you, to smile or to just care for little things in life.

Call me lame for having such an ancient mind; I do believe people should do it more often in daily life.

What is it about ego that can’t be hindered?

What is it about winning side that can’t be bothered by losing just a little bit?

Just a little bit wouldn’t hurt, mind you. I always find it’s nice for people to
say thank you. A simple thank you note would suffice.
At least, to some people it is.

People actually have the effort to help you, to send you great wishes, to lend you things, to care for you and etc.

What’s so hard to utter the words of gratitude? It could brighten someone’s day. You’ll never know.

I don't know but I'm just really into people who practice common courtesies, proper etiquette etc. 

Good to know my Mark feel the same way. Hahaa.

P/s: Being dorky on the other hand is different with ill-mannered people.

“Life is short, but there is always time enough for courtesy.”
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

"I seek constantly to improve my manners and graces, for they are the sugar to which all are attracted."
~Og Mandino

"I think sometimes people project things on you, but I'm trying to handle everything that's happened to me with a certain amount of grace, dignity and good manners. You just can't necessarily win all the time."
~Katie Couric

Challenge my luck

It's been a while. Well I've come to wipe off the dust that I left in this space.

It's not that I don't wanna write anymore but I've come to write in another place. It's just that I've always prefer some space with few known people, sort of like a secret lair. One thing about technologies is that at certain point, you'll feel like you've shared so much that it almost felt like your thoughts are naked.

As of now, I've been exercising my brain once again, doing what I've always wanted to do. Truth is, I've so much to do in my life. I have a new obsession too, something I wouldn't have thought of liking before, but yeah I'm breaking the rules anyway. I have so much interest with my new obsession that I wouldn't mind being a dork just to scrap a tiny info about them. I've never been like this. But hell yeah, once I've made up my mind, I swear I'm not turning back.

On another note, I'm trying to absorb the positivity as much as I can just cause I need it.

I'm quoting Robin (HIMYM), "The future is scary But you can't just run back to the past because it's familiar. Yes, it's tempting...But it's...."

In the episode, it supposed to be "it's a mistake" but I'm going for this

-but it's just a set of experiences that will teach you a better lesson.

I'm ending my post with one of my fav songs (if you know it by heart just by looking at the lyrics, you are an ACE! xD)

"I wish I could be happy, I wish I wish I wish

That something would happen. Where do we go from here

The planet is all gummed up in the sea of fear

And where are you............"

Till then, cheers peers! <3

“Don't be afraid of your fears. They're not there to scare you. They're there to let you know that something is worth it.” ― C. JoyBell C.

Sharp & valid

Pic courtesy of quote

As Loud As Feeling

I'm writing this as a response to this. Guess this is written for all of you, you know who you are.

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart”
― Helen Keller

It'd be a blatant lie if I say I felt nothing reading the entire post because man, I do. And I do it wholeheartedly hence writing this entry.

It's no surprise that we have known each other for almost 4 years and counting. We just sort of clicked and like a force between two magnetic poles, it can never be broken. At least not without a presence of another force.

What force? It could be anything but I'll leave it as it is. I'm afraid my thoughts will turn into reality.

Anyhow, in less than 2 months or 3 months top, each of us will depart and follow a different path. Some of us are getting married, some of us might be planning to continue studying and whatnot.

Truly time isn't so friendly to us. At least not in our final semester because I swear everyday I was left being unsatisfied with the time we spent.

Never enough.

There's always new gossip to share.

New issue to prank.

New thought to ponder.

New opinion.

New joke.

With you guys, there is always something new.

I love how a mundane day can turn into a joyous day in a split second.

How ridiculously plain issue can turn into a redonkulous joke of the world.

How a short laughter can turn into a chain of laughter among us.

pic courtesy of steve

How the 'no offense' jokes become 'offense intended' jokes for a mere laughter.

Trust me dearest friends, if I were to summarize the whole experiences it still wouldn't be enough.

For that, I thank you all my beloved. Merci beaucoup.

Thanks for letting me see life through a whole different perspective. I wouldn't have changed for the better if it's not for your kind endeavor.

For the times we bicker and such, that's just a mistake every once in a while. And here's sorry for the mistakes done. Cheers. :)

Let's enjoy the time that we have and relish it while it lasts.

The span of our friendship is never up to any limit.

Though we go our separate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
The memories we made

Please remember, Please remember

Reminder

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

Of thinking beyond

A new chapter of life is beginning soonish.

I'm not sure about others but I have a fest inside my head. A planning fest, that is. I tend to plan lots of things inside my tiny head.

Words i wanna say.

Things i wanna do.

Places i wanna go.

Inappropriate honest opinions I wanna shoot.

Dreams I have.

It's all in my head. It's a galore. Sadly, most of the times it didn't happen the way i wanted it to be or perhaps the way it should have been. But for the things I did, things I have gone through, I keep reminding myself there's no regret.

"Nothing can happen to us except what Allah has ordained for us. He is our Master. It is in Allah that the muminun should put their trust" (Al-Tawba: 51)

It shouldn't be any regret. The problem lies for the things I never do, things I wanna do.

What's the saying about following your guts etc? Well sometimes I feel like I have no guts to do some things. That explains why some things left in the list, never been ticked off.

"If I could give you just one gift, do you know what it would be? Confidence." (One Day, 2011)

Yeah, I need confidence. Still confidence alone isn't gonna cut it. I need something more.

I actually tittered at the thought of me wanting something more. I haven't rip the shadow of my so-called confidence, yet I want something more. Hish.

Many a time I think and just think, never really do what I wanna do, never really say what I wanna say and the list goes on. And for the things I should do or must do, I tend to stall it. It's fatal. I do believe the more you stall, the lazier you are. At the end of the day, you'll go crazy.

Funny how a brain works, often driven by aims or targets. But who am I kidding? We are His servants with a sole purpose which is to serve Him and none other. In spite of all that, for the worldly affairs if we have a longer time span of accomplishing a goal, we would nonetheless stall if we could. The likelihood of giving other trivial business is higher.

This is where I am wrong. In need of a change.

It's a new year soon. According to Muslim calendar, it's 1433. Alhamdulillah for Allah still giving me a chance to breathe in for another second, minute, week, year (God knows when).

Life goes by in a blink of an eye. I read this one book and it is true that time is going faster these days.

The Prophet(SAW) told us that one of the signs of the Last Day would be that

“Time would move faster - so that a whole year would pass like a month, a month would pass like a week, a week like a day, a day like an hour, and an hour like the amount of time it takes to kindle a fire.” (Ahmad)

This is actually a reminder for us, forgetful servants to do rightful things for gaining access to the beautiful jannah.

Note to self: Do and keep doing. Not think and do nothing.
InsyaAllah.

Salam Maal Hijrah. Xo

That's My Man, yo!

A Token Gesture

I've noticed I keep coming back writing in here when I clearly stated that I won't be coming back. So much for hiatus. :\

Whatever. All I know is that I have this one week for a short break. I can do whatever I want. Me writing in here, it's like a medium to drain some parts in my brain. Having people to read it on the other hand is a different story.

One week isn't that 'fantasy' long if you have to minus it with reality. Yeah, as usual assignments tag along.

Anyway, earlier today when I was driving back home my door wasn't properly closed as in not tight closed. Usually I'd have known for certain seeing the light in my car indicating it's not properly closed. But no, this time no light whatsoever.

Once upon a moment, there was this one guy honked me few times to warn me. At first, I thought WTH man, did I cut your line? Did I do something to offend you?

But when I saw him, he was warning me complete with hand gestures and everything. I'm thankful for that small act of kindness.

What fazed me was that no one other than him said anything about the door. I mean, I was driving for more than 10 mins before he came and honked at me. What happened to few others?

Positive thinking! Maybe they didn't see it at all. It was my fault to even begin with. I should have checked my door. Le sigh.

Anyhow I'm just being thankful and all that. May Allah bless you wherever you are.

I'd never forget a small act of kindness.

"Do not forget small kindnesses and do not remember small faults. " -Chinese Proverb

Cleansing Soul

Subhanallah. Inspiring, isn't it? I couldn't agree more.

It's weird that I felt a sudden gush of weird emotions watching the videos. So weird that having two in one sentence isn't enough. :\

It's a mix feelings of sadness, guilty, the feeling of not enough and anything equals to those. Oh wait, it's heightened.

It's not a shame that I actually broke out into tears watching both of the videos. Yes, I'm sentimental like that. I know it says in the title "Don't shed a tear watching this video".

Oh my, I didn't invite the tears. It came streaming down my cheeks just like that. Just because.

Truthfully, how often do you hear such powerful words that can easily touch your heart? Perhaps the threshold of my sadness began to recede on its own.

If your soul is still unflinching, I pray that one day you'll get there.

I don't know about you. I believe it depends on which angle you view it, no?

Frankly the message in the video uplifted me.

I wrote this once and I'm going to repeat it again as a reminder. We're so determined to satisfy ourselves hankering for the worldly affairs that we forget the existence of the other world.

Even if you're not ready, it doesn't hurt to just try and keep learning. Let's because I'm willing to learn. Xo

“He wanted to cry quietly but not for himself: for the words, so beautiful and sad, like music.”
― James Joyce, A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man

“Anyone who has learned the Quran and holds it lovingly in his heart will 'value his nights when people are asleep, his days when people are given to excess, his grief when people are joyful, his weeping when people
laugh, his silence when people chatter and his humility when people are arrogant'. In other words every moment of life will be precious to him, and he should therefore be 'gentle', never harsh nor quarrelsome, 'nor one who makes a clamour in the market nor one who is quick to anger'.”
― Ibn Mas'ud

“Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before--more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle.”
― Charles Dickens

En la repetición

On repeat is the title.

I know I said I won't be coming back but damn, the temptation of writing when you had something in your mind is just.. umm let's settle with irresistible.

I hate being awakened in the middle of the night but yeah, I am only human after all. What say do I have in the normal cycle of my body? Oh wait, hate is a strong word. I just don't fancy it, not at all.

I wonder is it the weight of the exam? or the dying sound of my alarm clock? or even the raucous sound of everything? I'm not sure which one fits in the answer mold. I didn't ask my body. X

Anyway I have an exam tomorrow and truth is I haven't finish study. But come to think of it, when did I ever finish study something? Aww, too bad! too bad!

Worst part is I wasn't so keen on having exam but then I read one thing posted by my friend on twitter. A lil' something like this

"This is our last semester. Why do we have such feeling of laziness rather than being extra happy to go sit for the exam? It's our last semester. We won't have all of these later, better cherish it now."

It's obviously not like that but I can't seem to recall the exact words but the meaning is there.

Reading this, it's like a good knock straight up to my head!!

This kind message is supposed to last for the whole semester but yeah, you know. Human!

It lasted for only few hours and dang the laziness resides back! Big time slacker.

I put it in here so that whenever I feel like straying away from my goal, here's the big knock again!

Anyway as usual, here's an excerpt from the book 'To Kill A Mockingbird" :

“We know all men are not created equal in the sense some people would have us believe- some people are smarter than others, some people have more opportunity because they're born with it, some men make more money than others, some ladies make better cakes than others- some people are born gifted beyond the normal scope of men.
But there is one way in this country in which all men are created equal- there is one human institution that makes a pauper the equal of a Rockefeller, the stupid man the equal of an Einstein, and the ignorant man the equal of any college president. That institution, gentlemen, is a court.”
― Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird

“Naw, Jem. I think that there is just one kind of folks. Folks."

Jen turned and punched his pillow. When he settle back his face was cloudy. He was going in to one of his declines, and I grew wary. His brows came together; his mouth became a thin line. He was silent for a while.

That is what I thought, too," he said at last, "when I was your age. If there is just one kind of folks, why can't they get along with each other? If they're all alike, why do they go out of their way to despise each other? Scout, I think I am beginning to understand something. I think I'm beginning to understand why Boo Radley stayed shut up in the house all this time...it's because he wants to stay inside”
― Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird

Promise Yourself

" To be so strong that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity
to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel
that there is something in them
To look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.

To think only the best, to work only for the best,
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others
as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times
and give every living creature you meet a smile.

To give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud words but great deeds.
To live in faith that the whole world is on your side
so long as you are true to the best that is in you. "

— Christian D. Larson

Passé

• First of all, Happy Eid to all Muslims all around the world. I know, it's quite late but NVM. Anyhow for those who know me, I'm asking for your forgiveness towards everything that I've done; Let's forgive and move on to a fresh start. ;)

• I've had a wonderful and joyous eid this year, albeit it's nothing close to being perfect since I no longer have a kampung. I miss every single thing about my village and most prominently, I miss my late grandma. Al-fatihah to my late grandma. May Allah shower His mercy upon her soul and place her amongst the solihin. Amin.

• I'm so blessed on this eid that I've got lots of duit raya. It never cease to amaze me how generous people can be. Well, my parents taught us if you have some extra for yourself, always give some to others; family, friends & even strangers. Don't be a penny-pinching person. This is the last year I'm getting duit raya, I'm thinking of buying something meaningful with it. I'm that sentimental. Haha xD

• I watched my team being humiliated and outclassed by the devils. Oh what more can I say, even at some point I was actually laughing, not knowing how to react. Damn. It was so sad and laughable at time. I've ranted my say in my twitter. Haha. But now with all the new signings, I hope we'll bounce back. But frankly speaking, I think we need to start all over. But hey here's to a positive thinking!! And yes, Arteta is in!! I've always like him, he's always be my choice in my FPL. Nice

• Bashing is so uncool, show some respect regardless of which team you support. You've got to try harder to make me go astray from supporting my team. I've been with them through thick and thin. It's been freaking 12 years mann!! Beat that haters. I do believe that respect can only be earned with respect. If you want others to respect you, first you've gotta learn to show some respect.
  

• I super love killing my time by reading something meaningful and creative. In there lies a great amount of inspiration. Hats off to the author with great mind! Cool stuffs!
  

• One piece of advise "Never ever forget your parents, family". It's disheartening hearing true stories about those who left their parents/family etc. Just so you remember, they were once struggling to give you the life you have today. If they're not, they're still your parents! Come on, be nice! They have every rights in the world to be well treated. Period.

• I'm still putting my mission on hold. It's true that I'm about to embark on a new journey but there's still a tad feeling of uncertainty. What's up with that? I'd love to ask people about that, but nahh I don't have the guts. ;(

• Joking has been a second nature in my family. If you can't accept a joke, don't call me family. As simple as that. Okay that doesn't come out right! What I'm trying to say is that don't be so serious. In times you've gotta let loose. Cheers
  

Here's something nice by Warren Buffet :

Hard work : All hard work brings profit; but mere talk leads only to poverty.
Laziness : A sleeping lobster is carried away by the water current.
Earnings : Never depend on a single source of income.
Spending : If you buy things you don't need, you'll soon sell things you need.
Savings : Don't save what is left after spending; Spend what is left after saving.
Accounting : It's no use carrying an umbrella, if your shoes are leaking.
Auditing : Beware of little expenses; a small leak can sink a large ship.
Risk-taking : Never test the depth of the river with both feet.

An Excerpt

There are different wells within your heart.
Some fill with each good rain,
Others are far too deep for that.

In one well
You have just a few precious cups of water,
That "love" is literally something of yourself,
It can grow as slow as a diamond
If it is lost.

Your love
Should never be offered to the mouth of a
Stranger,
Only to someone
Who has the valor and daring
To cut pieces of their soul off with a knife
Then weave them into a blanket
To protect you.

There are different wells within us.
Some fill with each good rain,
Others are far, far too deep
For that.

~ Hafez

Here is an excerpt by Hafez, one of the greatest Persian poets. Ohh I'm in love with his poem. His words are so real.

A symphony

To live content with small means;
to seek elegance rather than luxury;
and refinement rather than fashion;
to be worthy, not respectable;
and wealthy, not rich;
to study hard,
think quietly,
talk gently,
act frankly;
to listen to stars and birds, to babes and sages, with open heart;
to bear all cheerfully, do all bravely, await occasion, hurry never;
in a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden
and unconscious grow up through the common.
This is to be my symphony.

~William Ellery Channing