A new chapter of life is beginning soonish.
I'm not sure about others but I have a fest inside my head. A planning fest, that is. I tend to plan lots of things inside my tiny head.
Words i wanna say.
Things i wanna do.
Places i wanna go.
Inappropriate honest opinions I wanna shoot.
Dreams I have.
It's all in my head. It's a galore. Sadly, most of the times it didn't happen the way i wanted it to be or perhaps the way it should have been. But for the things I did, things I have gone through, I keep reminding myself there's no regret.
"Nothing can happen to us except what Allah has ordained for us. He is our Master. It is in Allah that the muminun should put their trust" (Al-Tawba: 51)
It shouldn't be any regret. The problem lies for the things I never do, things I wanna do.
What's the saying about following your guts etc? Well sometimes I feel like I have no guts to do some things. That explains why some things left in the list, never been ticked off.
"If I could give you just one gift, do you know what it would be? Confidence." (One Day, 2011)
Yeah, I need confidence. Still confidence alone isn't gonna cut it. I need something more.
I actually tittered at the thought of me wanting something more. I haven't rip the shadow of my so-called confidence, yet I want something more. Hish.
Many a time I think and just think, never really do what I wanna do, never really say what I wanna say and the list goes on. And for the things I should do or must do, I tend to stall it. It's fatal. I do believe the more you stall, the lazier you are. At the end of the day, you'll go crazy.
Funny how a brain works, often driven by aims or targets. But who am I kidding? We are His servants with a sole purpose which is to serve Him and none other. In spite of all that, for the worldly affairs if we have a longer time span of accomplishing a goal, we would nonetheless stall if we could. The likelihood of giving other trivial business is higher.
This is where I am wrong. In need of a change.
It's a new year soon. According to Muslim calendar, it's 1433. Alhamdulillah for Allah still giving me a chance to breathe in for another second, minute, week, year (God knows when).
Life goes by in a blink of an eye. I read this one book and it is true that time is going faster these days.
The Prophet(SAW) told us that one of the signs of the Last Day would be that
“Time would move faster - so that a whole year would pass like a month, a month would pass like a week, a week like a day, a day like an hour, and an hour like the amount of time it takes to kindle a fire.” (Ahmad)
This is actually a reminder for us, forgetful servants to do rightful things for gaining access to the beautiful jannah.
Note to self: Do and keep doing. Not think and do nothing.
InsyaAllah.
Salam Maal Hijrah. Xo
Gael: Gael.
Ted: I’m sorry, Gayle?
Gael: Gael!
Barney: …Kyle?
Gael: Guy-el.
Marshall: …Girl?
How I Met Your Mother 3.01 - “Wait For It”
I've noticed I keep coming back writing in here when I clearly stated that I won't be coming back. So much for hiatus. :\
Whatever. All I know is that I have this one week for a short break. I can do whatever I want. Me writing in here, it's like a medium to drain some parts in my brain. Having people to read it on the other hand is a different story.
One week isn't that 'fantasy' long if you have to minus it with reality. Yeah, as usual assignments tag along.
Anyway, earlier today when I was driving back home my door wasn't properly closed as in not tight closed. Usually I'd have known for certain seeing the light in my car indicating it's not properly closed. But no, this time no light whatsoever.
Once upon a moment, there was this one guy honked me few times to warn me. At first, I thought WTH man, did I cut your line? Did I do something to offend you?
But when I saw him, he was warning me complete with hand gestures and everything. I'm thankful for that small act of kindness.
What fazed me was that no one other than him said anything about the door. I mean, I was driving for more than 10 mins before he came and honked at me. What happened to few others?
Positive thinking! Maybe they didn't see it at all. It was my fault to even begin with. I should have checked my door. Le sigh.
Anyhow I'm just being thankful and all that. May Allah bless you wherever you are.
I'd never forget a small act of kindness.
"Do not forget small kindnesses and do not remember small faults. " -Chinese Proverb
Subhanallah. Inspiring, isn't it? I couldn't agree more.
It's weird that I felt a sudden gush of weird emotions watching the videos. So weird that having two in one sentence isn't enough. :\
It's a mix feelings of sadness, guilty, the feeling of not enough and anything equals to those. Oh wait, it's heightened.
It's not a shame that I actually broke out into tears watching both of the videos. Yes, I'm sentimental like that. I know it says in the title "Don't shed a tear watching this video".
Oh my, I didn't invite the tears. It came streaming down my cheeks just like that. Just because.
Truthfully, how often do you hear such powerful words that can easily touch your heart? Perhaps the threshold of my sadness began to recede on its own.
If your soul is still unflinching, I pray that one day you'll get there.
I don't know about you. I believe it depends on which angle you view it, no?
Frankly the message in the video uplifted me.
I wrote this once and I'm going to repeat it again as a reminder. We're so determined to satisfy ourselves hankering for the worldly affairs that we forget the existence of the other world.
Even if you're not ready, it doesn't hurt to just try and keep learning. Let's because I'm willing to learn. Xo
“He wanted to cry quietly but not for himself: for the words, so beautiful and sad, like music.”
― James Joyce, A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
“Anyone who has learned the Quran and holds it lovingly in his heart will 'value his nights when people are asleep, his days when people are given to excess, his grief when people are joyful, his weeping when people
laugh, his silence when people chatter and his humility when people are arrogant'. In other words every moment of life will be precious to him, and he should therefore be 'gentle', never harsh nor quarrelsome, 'nor one who makes a clamour in the market nor one who is quick to anger'.”
― Ibn Mas'ud
“Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before--more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle.”
― Charles Dickens
It's so fun doing this one.
Anyway that's one hell of a snapshot of what combines myself. Hahaha. Kidding.
I took the quiz from here. It's cool, isn't it?!(^_^)
Your buddies will be overjoyed to learn that you've drawn the Friendship Bracelet. It stands for sociability and your talent for making each friend, online and off, feel special. So very special.
Quick: look out your window. Any purple mountains' majesty? Amber waves of grain? We wouldn't be surprised, because you're in the U-S-A!
Hello intrepid Firefox 3 user! You’ve been with us for a long time, and we’re excited to share Firefox 4 with you. Until then, accept this trusty robot as a symbol of our appreciation.
A symbol of risk and reward! You're no stranger to chance, to taking a walk on the 20-sided dark side. In the game of life, you're +10 Geekiness.
You are the Gear Head — mark of those who know their limited-slip differential from their throttle body. You get all revved up at the sound of a big V8, and the smell of burning rubber brings a wistful tear to your eye.
You're nothing if not a completist, and you like to take it with you. Compact, concise and in control, you are master of your musical domain. Mp3, WMA, FLAC — Rock accordingly.
Let's go! You're not one to sit around; you like the active, positive and healthful, in body mind and spirit. And you have the sweaty wrists to prove it.
The Friendship Pin — an unbreakable bond between you and your BFF. It shows you are loyal, willing to wear your love on your sleeve (or sneaker).
Aha, The Magician! You possess unusual powers, and can conjure up the truth from any situation. Also, you can turn the world on with your smile.
The adhesive bandage — mark of The Healer. You seek the perfection of the human form, or at least one less headache.
Wield the tools to make it yours, for you are unique — and your browser can reflect that.
The mark of the professional — you've defined yourself in the business world, and earned a fancy title for your efforts.
The Pocket Knife — small, versatile, and just a little bit dangerous. It is your symbol because you are resourceful, and sharp, and you know how to fold yourself.
--------------------------------------------------------------------
Here's another one but this one is created with my second option for the quiz. Haha xD
Technology lives to serve, and you like your information portable, pocketable and sharable. That's how data becomes action, and gadgets become essential.
You know what's next; you have it all written down in your date book -the symbol of The Organizer. You're the one we turn to when we are in doubt, for you hold the answers.
The symbol of unpretentious creativity and art. You are almost certainly imbued with a child-like curiosity and an unfettered imagination, enjoy self expression and bright colors. You are child-like, or may actually be a child.
As easy as clapping on a light, it's what you've been waiting for — the one-click bookmark. Don't you have enough to do without having to suffer the indignity of multiple clicks?
Ancient symbol of self-reliance, the Knitting Needle stands for your expressive individuality in the face of commercialism. With your own hands you create that which you desire, and make it purely your own.
For you, the Internet cannot be contained to a desk or a cafe. You carry it with you, not a place you go, but a tool you use. This is your Swiss Army Knife™.
You can hope to ward off evil with a rabbit's foot, or you can be more proactive. You're the pragmatist — you own your destiny, control your security and know the value of self-defense.
The symbol of travel, of paths taken and untaken, of sleeping upright in a middle seat. You are The Traveler.
Mystery, science, adventure — these aspects of your character are embodied in your symbol — The Gyroscope. You have the unique ability to remain calm and steady as the world spins around you. Maybe you even know how to pirouette.
You have a bright outlook, flexible attitude, and a kooky sense of aesthetics. You're probably the type of person that appreciates the use of the word 'kooky'.
You like to set a course for adventure, your mind on a new experience. Your treasured memories are your reward. Therefore you richly deserve The Nautilus!
You have drawn the Mark of the Connection; Active, strong and reliable — that's you. People count on you to keep grounded at all times, even up in the air.
This vessel of curative liquid is your symbol, o power user! You are clear of vision, attack a problem at its source, and at the ready. You probably spend a lot of time staring at a screen, too.
Infinite kindness and fortune, they smile upon you. You're searches lead you to answers, and you're feeling lucky.
"When anyone greets you in a courteous manner, let your greetings be better that his- or at least return the same, Allah keeps account of everything." (An-Nisa 86)
"Follow thou the inspiration sent unto thee, and be patient and constant, till Allah do decide: for He is the best to decide."
(Quran 10:109)
On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns. (Pray: ) “Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error; our Lord! Lay not on us a burden Like that which Thou didst lay on those before us; Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. Thou art our Protector; Help us against those who stand against faith.”(Quran 2:286)
“And whether you disclose what is in your own selves or conceal it, Allah will call you to account for it” (Qur’an 2: 284)
That is, He will call to account and He (SWT) will ask, but a person will not be punished concerning those things over which he had no power, such as the whispering of oneself and one’s speech to oneself, for this Allah (SWT) will not hold mankind accountable. And to abhor the evil whispering is a part of Faith. (Taken from Latis)
"So by mercy from Allah , [O Muhammad], you were lenient with them. And if you had been rude [in speech] and harsh in heart, they would have disbanded from about you. So pardon them and ask forgiveness for them and consult them in the matter. And when you have decided, then rely upon Allah . Indeed, Allah loves those who rely [upon Him]." (Quran 3:159)
"If Allah should aid you, no one can overcome you; but if He should forsake you, who is there that can aid you after Him? And upon Allah let the believers rely."(Quran 3:160)
"And if Allah should touch you with adversity, there is no remover of it except Him; and if He intends for you good, then there is no repeller of His bounty. He causes it to reach whom He wills of His servants. And He is the Forgiving, the Merciful" (Quran 10:107)
"And no bearer of burdens will bear the burden of another. And if a heavily laden soul calls [another] to [carry some of] its load, nothing of it will be carried, even if he should be a close relative. You can only warn those who fear their Lord unseen and have established prayer. And whoever purifies himself only purifies himself for [the benefit of] his soul. And to Allah is the [final] destination" (Quran 35:18)
One must not complain because Allah(S.W.T) predestines their hardship. No amount of hardship is beyond one's capability to endure. I know that. Truly I am.
But often in times, I failed myself. I failed when it comes to patience, perseverance and whatnot.
It's hard to be righteous when there's a pinch of bitterness tainted your soul. And when there's an option to complain, you complain nonetheless. You complain to yourself, to other self and even to Him.
What if there's no option to complain, what would you rather do?
Meekly speaking, who am I to question the integrity of what lies in my own destination? I am indeed a slave to Him. O Allah, grant me a great amount of patience with endless capacity to endure whatever befalls on me. Amin.
"Bukan senang nak jadi baik, bukan susah nak jadi jahat. Tapi yang bukan senang itu selalunya lebih mulia dari segalanya"
Posts
