true friend

As Dorotyhl said in my chat box, the only way to have a good friend is to be one. Well I am strongly agreed with her. Everyone in this world needs a friend no matter whether you live in a rural area, a suburb area or even when you think you do not actually need a friend. You need a friend and by saying friend I mean someone you know well and who is not from your family. We need friends because we always need someone to rely on. Friends are where you go to when you are sad or happy. You always need someone to share the happiness and everything that you have been through. The question is now how to find a good friend? To find a good friend is like the hardest thing to do because there are many friends out there but we never know who might turn the good things back to us. You could just befriend with anyone in a little wink of your eye but it could take what a month, a year or even a decade for you to find good friends. Sometimes when we are too close with our friends, they could become our worst enemies because ‘Best friend is your worst enemy’. We will never know if they are backstabbing us or talk bad about us until some of your friends spill the bin. I have lots of friends because I was moving a lot while I was growing up. It was hard for me to find good friends too because when I had build a good relationship with my friends I had to move to another place. But I got lucky because I went to a boarding school when I was 13 so I could easily build trust with my friends from school. It is essential to have trust in friendship. Frankly, I was not a good girl myself back years ago during my school time. When I was 13, I actually met a good friend who has happened to be in same class with me. She was like this gorgeous and prettiest girl in my class. At first I thought she was a bit arrogant but as people say we cannot judge a book by its cover and it turned out I was totally wrong because when I get to know her she is actually a kind girl who has a big heart and big ambition. I like her and we had so much fun being together as friends. She is funny and a little crazy herself and it was always fun when we spent time together. However being friends together in hostel could cause troublesome because it’s like we go everywhere together and there are quite a few times when we don’t meet an eye to eye. After a while (2 years and half), it felt like I did not like her that much because there are few of her attitudes that irk me. I ditched her just like that and went to befriend with someone else. Now that I think about it, I was like how cruel I was at that time. She never told me about how bad I was or something like she did not like my attitude or what. I mean I ditched her because I did not like one or two things about her but to think of it she could have done the same things to me right? I was not a good girl after all but she never told me that. She would wait for me everyday after class and she would still wait for me even when I started to show my evil side until she noticed that I did not want to befriend with her anymore. I felt nothing and I actually continued living my life like nothing happened. Soon after that, I moved to another boarding school and we are still keeping in touch with each other. But it was only like saying hello and that is all. I did not really care because I have other friends. However as I grow older and started to think properly as a mature woman I do realized about what happened and I could not tell you how bad I felt. I wish I could turn back time so that I will not be such a bitch to ditch such a good friend. We are still contacting each other right now but things have gone different. She is still like this crazy girl who I used to like and I still do but we were not as good as before. She has friends now who would never ditch her in any way and I feel bad for myself for not having the guts to confess everything to her. I have never told her how bad I felt right now. I guess I will just keep it inside my heart and I do have good friends now. I would never betray them or ditch them again. I finally learn to say that everyone is not perfect. It is always true by being a good friend we will get good friend. Things are revolving around like this. True friend is a person who would always be by your side no matter what. If you are sad they will be there to lend you a shoulder for you to cry on and they will be twice as happy as you are when you have hit the jackpot. They will definitely leave footprint in our heart therefore I urge myself and everyone out there, please do not waste your time to find someone else cooler, prettier or even brighter than the one you already have. You just have to endure some things because no one is perfect and your friend would appreciate you the way you are if you do the same favor. =]