Strange As It May Seem

"Strange as it may seem, I still hope for the best, even though the best, like an interesting piece of mail, so rarely arrives, and even when it does it can be lost so easily."

— Lemony Snicket (The Beatrice Letters )

Recently I talked to a complete stranger. I'm not entirely sure what have gotten into me, But I've always feel the need to talk to a stranger. I mean how bad could it be, though it's a bit peculiar?

I picture the idea of talking to a stranger, telling your problem etc would be terrific. Should I use this word? Well, as of today, I think I should.
Seriously I felt great, I felt somewhat relieved for me to be able to open up to such a stranger. I shared my problem with him, more like I told him. I poured out every single thing that bothers me. First thing first, he doesn't know me so he doesn't judge me like others do. I mean if he did judge me in any way, I couldn't care less since you know he's a stranger after all.

Then I think that we don't know each other and we're not gonna meet again, so at ease, I'm telling him everything. I wonder how I did that actually considering I've been a secretive person all this while. I mean I could never tell those kind of things to people I know for real. I'm scared of being judged. I'm scared of what they might think of me; their perspective towards me etc. I'm scared that they don't really care about my problem or maybe worst, they pretend to care. I've never tell people about my real problems. No matter how big it is, I'll keep it to myself and try to put on a brave face and pretend that I'm okay.

I don't really like to share those kind of things with anyone. I have a trust issue anyway. I don't believe that when you tell people to keep a secret, they'll keep that promise. It will never be. It occurs to me to think that people is not good with secret since all of us have a high level of curiosity. The things that are meant to be secret will eventually come out of its box. Seriously, the more you tell people 'don't tell anybody about this', the more they will likely want to share it with somebody else and telling the next person, 'don't tell anyone about this'. Do you agree? Haha.

The thing is whenever I have a problem, I usually write it down somewhere else and trying hard to struggle with it alone. I don't like to bother people with my issues. I always keep it alone to myself. If I ever tell anyone about my problem etc, well the truth is the problem is like a small matter. So I don't mind sharing it with any close friends. But to tell people about what's my real feeling, my real problem and such, it would never occur in any lifetime. Haha.

Today is a new day. I begin to think this telling problem to a stranger is quite a good thing. You tell them your problems, you get feedback, you felt relieved and voila it ends just like that. =)

I felt great today. Seriously it kinda boost my confidence. Haha. I'm so lame.

Whatever. Enjoy your day peeps.

P/s: It's a great wonder to know that you're able to do a little thing that can easily change your life. A small thing we do can do wonders in our life.