Choose one for me

Saturday, April 30, 2011

It's official now, I'm currently a working woman. Eh? It sounded so wrong..No No, not yet.

I'm now working as a trainee for my engineering industrial training in one of the oil and gas companies here in Malaysia. It's better not to mention the name of the company.

Having said that, I don't really have time to update my blog, usually at night I'm too tired to even write anything. Knackered. I've never sleep so early before, but now that I'm working, I tend to sleep early. In fact, there was this one time I slept at 9.00pm. I've never sleep that early considering I usually spend my time in lab, I'm a nocturnal being. I don't sleep at night. But now it's tiring, I have no choice.

It's too early to tell what's my job scope for now. And I'm not gonna say anything in here since it's better to just hold it inside. But it's a bit different than what I've learned.

Continuity gives us roots; change gives us branches, letting us stretch and grow and reach new heights. ~Pauline R. Kezer

And I pray to Allah to help me get through everything. I really need it. I hope I'll get over this phase soon. Give me a lot of strength to withstand anything and grant me a mind free from worry. May Allah ease everything.

On the other hand, I really really really miss my friends. I miss to laugh with all of them. I'm indeed serious. I don't know why, but something happened to me. It's like I'm not myself anymore. I tend to be timid and shy and anything equal to those. This is definitely not me. I hope I'll tear the costume soon, someone is using it diligently to disguise as me. Pfftt

And regards on my checklist, I don't think I have ample time to make it all happen. I'll try my best though.

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, and live along some distant day into the answer. ~Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet

P/s: I wonder should I be content with everything even if it doesn't fit the purpose? Should I? hmm

0 response(s):